Saturday, 31 December 2011

Happy new year!

The old is peeling off
Feelings of newness and hope arise
Shedding off the old,
willing for the new
to be as good as its shiny.
We grow a year older
One only hopes,
we also grow a year wiser
and not as full of vice
as last year 
Wishing everyone 
A Beautiful and Hopeful
Happy New Year!



Tuesday, 27 December 2011

Abandoning

Flying free,
completely abandoning my restrictions
watching myself finally smile,
with my eyes.
But only I see that smile
of mine
All that the others see
are eyes that speak a language
that no one understands,
looking far far away.
But I felt this smile of mine -
It had finally escaped
the boundaries that others
drew for it.


Saturday, 24 December 2011

Beginnings....
A deceptive word.
They also mean an ending to something else.
So what is it?
Shall we call it a beginning or an ending? Is it just change? Is it just a shift?
Or shall we just say that language is such a confusing thing, having many words for just one thing!
Be like the bushmen who have very few words, yet communicate perfectly. Everything is black or white. Greys and in-betweens are simply not given any value. Like the computer binary language - 0 or 1.
Either you are or you are not.
Bloody language, I say!

Monday, 19 December 2011

Familiar Stranger

Familiar stranger,
strangely familiar,
the pattern seem to fit when you look,
at it one by one,
yet the picture as a whole,
seems to be so dissonant.
There is a missing link.
There is some unnameable chink.
Its gone.
But left behind a hole,
that can't be filled.
For there was a delicate barrier,
that made strangers friends
and the unfamiliar, familiar.
Now its gone,
leaving behind a stranger
who was once familiar,
But is now just a face
with a smile that reminds me
of a stranger
with whom I was once familiar.

Wednesday, 14 December 2011

Fee! Fie! Fo! Fum! I smell a strange smell!?!

I know this sounds extremely crazy. But well… smells matter.
 I was having a conversation with a colleague of mine. She came smelling of espresso and I was immediately tempted to have some espresso then and there!
The smell of coffee in the morning is a major wake up call for me. Sometimes I wake up telling myself that, ‘If I wake up now, then I can enjoy my coffee a little longer’.
I have once been woken up by having a mug of coffee put under my nose…. “Ok baby, wake up now! We need to pack up and MOVE!!!” trust me I was up within half a minute. Cold coffee in the morning doesn’t work well you see…!:-)
But other than my favourite smell of coffee, the smell of good food damp earth, rains, mild perfumes – these things draw me out and make me smile.
Some smells are just so comforting – like my mother’s smell. I know that smell. She has smelt that way ever since I remember her. It’s not something I can name, its just there. Comforting and nice. The familiarity of it all makes me smile with a very deep pleasure.
The smell of wet earth reminds me of paper boats I used to make with my sister and let them float on the puddles in the building. It used to be so much fun. We used to see how long the paper boats last. And whose goes furthest…. An innocent version of the all-consuming boat race that we face in our daily life now….
Then there are other smells… the extremely unpleasant smell of the Koovum river as you enter Chennai by train in the morning. Before you reach Madras Central station, you have to cross the Basin Bridge station which has the once beautiful river which is now a gutter and a natural alarm clock – the Koovum river. This river stinks so bad that even in the deepest of slumbers; I wake up and say, ‘Ah! I have reached Chennai!’
Another smell that has always been completely disgusting, yet a part of homecoming to me is the smell of Mahim creek. I think it beats even Koovum. It has a distinctly industrial waste kinda smell along with the various other unnameable organic smells that accost us as soon as we enter this hot, humid and vibrant city of Mumbhai.
After the air conditioned cool air of the airplane and the airport, once you get your baggage and cross customs, you realize that you have a cold or a blocked nose. Once you are in your taxi/auto and steaming in the traffic, you are trying hard to deep breathe and unblock your nose. But once you are near the Mahim creek and you take a deep breath and hey presto! Your nose gets unblocked and you breathe easy….. Or maybe not!
But well… Shah Rukh Khan put it well enough in Dilwale…. ‘In big big cities, such small small things happen senorita!’